My self-esteem and confidence levels have been pretty low lately. You may notice that even though I post pictures online all the time it’s rare for a photo of my face to make an appearance. The truth is, I’ve never been this unhappy with the way I look.
Like many university students, I’ve gained weight. But in my case, this weight isn’t just because I’ve been spending too much time at Pizza Corner or drinking downtown (I haven’t actually done either of those things). I will admit that at times my diet could be better and it would be amazing if I spent a couple more hours working out each week….
But at the end of the day, I have a hormone imbalance and leaky gut syndrome; it’s going to take time for my body to heal before I start to look and feel like myself again. Even though I know this situation is a little bit out of my control and I’m doing what I can to get better, it’s been so hard for me to feel comfortable in my body because I don’t recognize myself when I look in the mirror or see a photograph.
I’ve always been petite. I’m only 5’2 and until all these issues started I’ve always pretty happy with my body. But now, I find myself avoiding mirrors and shopping for clothes. At times I feel so low that it doesn’t even seem worth it to put in the extra 15 minutes to do my hair and makeup in the morning. Instead of leaving my house, I tend to want to hide away in my apartment.
When I was approached by behuman a few months ago I was a little nervous because I knew I’d have to have my photo taken. But I took the chance and said yes because I love the message that behuman promotes! As I mentioned in a blog post a few months ago, it’s a brand that focuses on embracing our differences and believing in ourselves and others. It was exactly the message I needed to hear.
Last week I participated in a photo shoot with 11 other amazing humans. We spent the day walking around Dartmouth while our talented photographer Sean McMullen made us feel like models. It was such a fun and positive experience that I actually forgot to feel insecure! It made me think about the things I like about myself and how being around good people makes me want to be a better person.
I’m still struggling with my body image. I’m also still working on fixing my body. But I have made progress in the past year and the headaches, stomach aches, acne and fatigue that I used to deal with on a daily basis have lessened considerably — and that’s huge. I feel better than I have in a year, and thanks to my friends at behuman I like myself a little more too.
Be weird. Be kind. Be you… Behuman.
Please go follow Sean McMullen and give him some love. He took all these beautiful photos of us and kindly let me use them in this blog post. I’ve linked the Instagram handles of the lovely people featured in the photos so give them some love as well!
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Thanks for reading and for all the support,